This morning I have been tracking down references for some of the more vague parts of my paper - courses I took years ago, concepts that are part of me not just head knowledge.
So here's what I discovered...
- I once taught at what I now know to be post grad level without knowing it as an industry trainer, ergo I was clever once.
- I have subconsciously developed and enhanced ideas I learned donkey's years ago, demonstration that I'm a reflective learner but meaning I don't have neat references for the ideas!
- Once upon a time I was very good at maths!
- I have actually written some pretty good theological essays over the years
Some concepts, metaphors and ideas keep on re-emerging in my writing and thinking, whatever the topic. Ironically despite despising geometric optics in A level physics (sorry Mrs Harris if you're reading) lenses, mirrors, prisms, diffraction, refraction and so on occur over and again in what I write on such diverse topics as possible Johannine anti-semitism, ecclesiology and even historical method.
Often I feel fikk, but I think that's OK so long as now and then I realise that actually I do know stuff after all!