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  • One Step Behind...

    My sabbatical research into 'public faith and private pain' has now gone 'live' and responses are coming in, for which I am very grateful.  Already two separate people have alerted me to a newly published book called Soul Pain: Priests Reflect on Personal Experience of Serious and Terminal Illness, Edited by Jennifer Tann pub. Canterbury Press 2013.  As the title suggests, it relates to pretty much the same the same interface/question but is approached via a collection of essays in which Anglican priests reflect on their experiences.

    A decade ago when I did my undergrad research on single people's experiences of church, a book was published about two weeks before my submission date that covered almost identical ground, and I had frantically to amend my work to note its existence and to explain why I had not included it in my reflections.

    Sometimes I wonder if I am always one step behind God's Spirit (as distinct from keeping in step with God's Spirit) or is it maybe that the ripples need time to spread and I am always a little way from the epicentre?  Either way, the book will be a valuable input to my thinking and serves as confirmation that the time is ripe for these questions to be explored.

  • Sight to the Inward Blind

    This morning's PAYG centred on the healing of Bartimaeus, a blind man who asked Jesus to restore his sight.  So he was man whose sight had failed, not a man born blind; he knew what he had lost and he wanted it back.  One of the things the listener was invited to do was to reflect on areas of spiritual blindness they would like Jesus to heal, and it struck me that you could actually only ask for restoration of 'spiritual sight' you had once had and now lost, or the gift of 'spiritual sight' you had become aware of in others... you had to know your blindness in order to ask for it to be removed.  This brought to kind mind the once very popular (maybe it still is) Johari Window:

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    There may be aspects of my spiritual sight (or health) that are I am aware of and others I am not aware of; likewise areas of spiritual blindness.  There are some that others are aware of and others they aren't aware of.  So long as I or others are aware of them, then work to 'open the eyes of the heart (or mind)' is possible.  But there is the unknown unknown - the spiritual blindness (or sight) of which I am unaware and so are others... only God is aware of it.  Prayer then becomes 'please give me the sight I don't know I lack'... but how will I know whether or when I have it?  It's a conundrum!!  But it does seem like the crucial prayer.

     

    God who sees what none can see,

    Who knows what non can know

    Give me sight, where I do not know I am blind

    Wisdom, where I do not know I am unwise

    Love, where I do not know my emptiness

    Open the Johari Window of my soul

    To receive your life-giving light

    Amen