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A Skinny Fairtrade Latte in the Food Court of Life - Page 1092

  • Easter 2007

    medium_JudasKiss.jpgIt has been an odd Easter, and I have resisted the temptations (a) to dwell on what has miffed me (b) to criticise what I've experienced in services and (c) to post anything until my last commitment was complete.  There is a lot I could say - a lot that found its way into my paper (and now rarely used) journal but I want to post on one train of thought only.

    On Friday evening I was channel hopping in search of something worth seeing and happened across the start of the repeat showing of the Manchester Passion.  I had loved it last year and thought it was worth seeing again; I was not disappointed.  Granted, I knew the ending and remembered much of the broadcast, but it was no less powerful.

    I have always had a soft spot for Judas, and as he sang 'Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now' the poignancy of his predicament touched something very deep within.  I don't do crying very often (like about once in ten years) but I found tears rolling down my cheeks as he sang.  Poor Judas, torn apart, feeling isolated, let down, bewildered, having agreed to something he already regretted... not a typical 'bad guy.'

    Maybe some of what he was singing/expressing connected with some of the vulnerability and scariness of being an HMF minister in a church that is always precarious; maybe the emptiness echoed some of what I felt about this Easter - who knows.  Whatever it was, it got me thinking.

    There are two key characters in the Garden of Gethsemane, Jesus and Judas, and each of them acts in some way  vicariously for every person who ever lived.  This is not the place for deep discussions on atonement theology, but if in some way Jesus' death was vicarious, then so was Judas' betrayal.  If Jesus somehow stands in the place of 'fallen humanity' than so does Judas.  We have no right to judge him, for we are him.

    Whether Judas hanged himself or whether his guts spontaneously spewed forth (both Biblical) I have no idea.  I feel for Judas, I really do.  Some how or other life became impossible after his betrayal of Jesus.  Tradition has it that he went to hell, scripture calls him a 'son of perdition' but when I think about him, recall how much Jesus loved him, I wonder.  I find that I want either (a) to be a universalist or (b) to embrace unreservedly the expression of the theology of the 'harrowing of hell' that sees the whole purpose of descent as to redeem those who were there.  I can't get to (a) otherwise I'm not sure what the point of the church is, and I have never studied (b) enough to fully appreciate its nuances.  Theology aside, I long, and have done for as many years as I can recall, one day to discover that in the end Judas was reconciled to Jesus, to God.  After all, there but for the grace of God go I.

    Late on Saturday night I got an email from someone I'll call Jonathan.  He is a member of my church but has been working away at a Christian centre for almost two years.  Jonathan is gay.  Jonathan had (has) a hardline theology of gayness and has spent as long as I've known him trying to make himself straight.  Last night's email was not such a surprise, but it made me sad - after a long struggle it has become too much and faced with the choice 'God or Gay' he's decided to explore gay.  He is lonely, angry, sexually frustrated, deadly earnest, and horribly, horribly confused.  I am sad not because of the choice he's made (though I struggle with aspects of it) but because he feels he had to choose.

    What should I do?  It's an issue where I have no neat answers and struggle to find a 'standpoint.' It's an issue where I accept the BU rules for ministers.  But I am Jonathan's pastor, not his judge, and, being female and straight aside, there but for the grace of God also go I.  I have tried to encourage him not to see it as 'either/or,' reminded him of evangelical networks that affirm a range of standpoints on human sexuality issues (he is terrified of liberalism), and assured him of my support whatever he decides.

    Are Jonathan and Judas so very different?  Am I?  Are you?  Where does the balance between inclusiveness and anything goes lie? 

    The last contact between Jesus and Judas was a kiss - how ironic that a first century greeting would be seen as 'gay' in our culture and age.  How ironic that love and intimacy should become so perverted, not by issues of sexuality but by intent.  How ironic that when I want to save Judas, I am called to stand beside Jonathan.

    Not the Easter I anticipated.  Not a story of resurrection joy, but one of being in a potter's field trying to talk Judas down from the tree, of praying that the Good Shepherd will go right to the bottom of the ravine (Paul Fiddes at his best) to rescue the weak, shivering lamb.

    The Easter story never ceases to amaze me; just when I think I have a clue, the pieces shift and the view changes - I have no more 'got it' than the first disciples who found crazy women telling them impossible things.  I still feel a little cheated that I didn't get to preach this year, but somehow, God has preached a sermon I needed to hear and then to share.

    Please pray for Jonathan, and all the sad, bewildered, angry, frustrated, lost, alone, whatever-they-are Judas-like characters you know.  And may the peace of Christ dwell richly in your hearts and minds this Eastertide and forever more.

  • 2 for 1 offers - good or bad?

    I often wonder about this, though I do take advantage of them, even today at the Fairtrade shop where the question seemed especially pointed.  "Buy one get one free on all Fairtrade Easter eggs" said the sign.  I would have bought two anyway, but I was left in a bit of a quandry about the 'rightness' of it.  Someone, somewhere, has to lose out in all this. 

    The shop in Leicester is staffed mainly by volunteers, and I assume it is the shop, not the suppliers, who take the hit on the reduced income.  But is even that right?

    A few years back I was preaching on Fairtrade Sunday and picked up this very theme - we all love bargains but is that fair for the shop floor retail staff, most of whom are on little over minimum wage, or the suppliers, who can, even in this country, make a loss on this kind of product (my erstwhile church secretary here works as production manager in a meat factory supplying Tescos, not withstanding some naivety and incompetence on their part, they regularly sell things for less than the cost price, made worse when these offers necessitate larger quantities).  We hear regularly the effect of supermarket pressure on local suppliers and small businesses, less often about the shelf stackers and till operators on just over £5 an hour.  The two for ones and three for twos have to be paid for somehow.

    I don't have any answers to this, I'm too much of a coward to insist on paying for both of my Easter eggs, and there aren't any simple answers to any of it.  I guess that for Fairtrade outlets, the pressure to conform to western, consumerist mindsets is enormous - but it is concerning that such pressures might undermine the good it does if we are not watchful.

    Still, the good thing is that I have now 'booked' a big box of sale or return Fairtrade goodies for the Dibley Pentecost Party taking place on 26th May from the very helpful people at Just (if only the Christian bookshops were as helpful...)

  • Easter Eggs symbolise...

    Well, according to Radio 2 at 6:20-ish this morning an unnamed supermarket had to have three versions of a press release before it was anywhere near ....

    Version 1 - Easter is a celebration of Jesus birth

    Version 2 - Easter is a celebration of Jesus' rebirth (to be fair you find this on lots of websites)

    Version 3 - Easter is a celebration of Jesus' resurrection

    It's a tad worrying if the PR companies employed by our supermarkets are really so clueless - but no more so than the countless churchgoers who complain about the secularisation of a pagan festival that the church took over (you, kind reader, of course know that Easter and oestrogen share the same root, that Oestere was a pagan fertility Godess whose festival conveniently occurred around the right time of year for marking Christ's Passion (Pasch)).

    Now, must go and buy some theologically sound cold pastry-topped teacakes...

  • Free to be Small!

    Plans for Baptist Assembly are drawing together, it seems, and one of the 'Special Interest Groups' is that of 'Small Churches' - nice irony as we account for the biggest number of Baptist churches and last year there were over 200 of us at the seminar!

    Anyway, the ambitious plan is as follows (though final order is to be agreed)...

     

    Introduction – Ruth Wood

    Free from buildings – Catriona Gorton

    Free to be different - Nigel Williams, Sandra Thwaite and Ken Walker

    Free to die – Sheila Martin

    Free to give – BMS representative, as arranged by Carol

    Free to be – Carol Murray

     

    An observation - isn't it funny, proportionately, how many women serve small churches?  I'm glad there are a couple of blokes involved but do wonder how a group of three will speak in the allocated 5 minute slot!

    Some interesting titles and, whatever size your church, you'll be very welcome to join us (I think on Sunday afternoon but that isn't final yet either!!).  See you there.

  • Holy Week 2007

    A leap from Palm Sunday to Low Sunday bypassing Holy Week - that will be the case for most of my congregation this year - less than half are coming on Maundy Thursday, maybe half a dozen on Good Friday and only four on Easter Sunday (I know this I had to sumbit numbers to the host churches!).  Yesterday as I offered words of blessing and 'sent them out' it was with knowledge that I wouldn't see most of them for a fortnight.  I am, as I have already posted, very saddened by this, but how can I deny tired, busy people their holidays just because I feel they are missing out by missing Easter?  Let's face it, most people missed Holy Week the first time around and most who were there didn't 'get it.'  What's actually changed?

    Last night tired after a long day I had a phone call that broke through my depsond.  A 'shut in' couple who look to us for some kind of pastoral support in crisis, rang to ask if I could take communion to them 'as close to Sunday as possible.'  Although I have managed to fill Sunday morning - I am leading intercessions for the Methodists at 8 a.m. and overseeing little girlies at 10:30, it will be good to actually lead a short act of worship for people who really want to mark Easter.

    On Low Sunday I am using the Emmaus Road story (much as I love Thomas, I've done him rather a lot) and linking it to some vision stuff from Isaiah and Revelation under a loose (and well worn) title of 'Easter People in a Good Friday World.'  Flicking through my very tatty BPW, I fund a song that seems to fit with all of this - I have never sung it and it is of a meter that means I can't readily pick an alternative tune - somewhere in the Low Sunday service it will fit in: -

     

    God is hope, and God is now!

    Hope, despite distress and darkness

    War and famine, woe and fear;

    Hope though hearts are sick with sorrow,

    Hope afar, yet richly near:

    Heart rise! Your faith avow,

    God is hope, and God is now,

    God is hope, and God is now!

     

    God is hope, and God is now!

    Hope not only for tomorrow –

    Death defeated, heaven won –

    But for present needs and graces,

    Ours today through Christ the Son.

    Spirit-wrought, we know not how,

    God is hope, and God is now,

    God is hope, and God is now!

     

    God is hope, and God is now,

    Hope for earth, and hope for heaven,

    Hope not meant for us alone:

    Then to all God’s human children

    We must make the gospel known.

    Up, my soul, make good your vow –

    Take God’s hope, and share it now!

    Take God’s hope and share it now.

     

    Margaret Clarkson (b. 1915) (c) Hope Publishing USA