I am just starting to read Walter Brueggemann's The Message of the Psalms published by Augsberg and not to be confused with similar title published by IVP in the 'Bible Speaks Today' series (not that there is anything wrong with that series, it's just aimed at a different audience I guess).  Anyway he notes that both traditional devotional and contemporary critical readings have strengths and weaknesses and offers what he calls a 'post critical' approach drawing on both strands.

In the introduction when he has noted some of the limitations of a purely devotional reading he goes on to say...

'My criticism, uncompromised as it is, is never the less restrained, because the Psalms permit the faithful to enter at what ever level they are able - in ways primitive or sophisticated, limited or comprehensive, candid or guarded.  The faithful of all "sorts and conditions," with varying skills and sensitivities, here find "the bread of life" as abiding nourishment.  Any critical scholarship must respect that gift that is given and received in this literature, even if we do not understand the manifold ways in which that communication occurs.'

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I think Brueggemann here manages to express something with which I constantly wrestle both in personal devotional reading and in preaching, and not restrictied to the Psalms.  Sometimes I find the published devotional material really naff because it is either blatantly wrong or it has the naivety that Brueggemann also struggles with.  Yet often at almost the same time I am working out how to gently nudge the thinking of my congregation forward whilst still respecting their starting point.  I can no more unlearn what I have learned about critical scholarship than I can turn back the clock, nor would I wish to, yet the insights bring their own challenges.  I think it is too facile  to say that either naive Bible reading or critical theological thinking are means to growth, rather it is some kind of 'both/and' balance which needs to be constantly worked at.  Brueggeman seems to manage something quite special in appealing to people of assorted theological and academic hues and in these words I find encouragement to continue my own engagement with this 'debate.'

Well, we did it - ten days, a fair few blisters and one sprained ankle in the process but we completed our trek from Liverpool to Hull covering the greater part of 200 miles in the process (there are semi-official mileages but they don't always quite match the conditions on the ground).

We set off from Liverpool in scorching sun and arrived in Hull looking like drowned rats.  Most of the journey was hot and sunny but the last three days reminded us what England in August is usually like.

I enjoyed the walk with its diverse scenery and range of walking surfaces.  From vast stretches of open countryside - and panoramic views from Woodhead Pass - to thatched cottages, to long stretches of canal tow path and a few delightful water treatment plants and industrial estates, we saw a microcosm of England.  We crossed and re-crosssed the M62 and M60 many times both over and under, and are now adept at crossing level crossings in rural areas where 100 mph trains clatter by every few minutes.  It was never dull and we developed some awful humour along the way which, perhaps thankfully, does not translate (though there is a small B&B in Padfield where a 'man' stays in one of the rooms so beware!).

We met some interesting people on the way - a few groups of cyclists doing the trip in 3-4 days (and had to give directions to one or two!), a Sustrans Ranger who told us where to get a good cup of tea cheaply - and who we met a day later at an RSPB place where we'd got one for free - a woman training to cycle the route alone, an ex-marine who we impressed with our efforts and a police officer who caused a traffic jam by stopping to read the notice pinned to my rucksack and then chatting to us.

It was a fun adventure and I am glad that we undertook it but of course it also had a more serious purpose - that of raising money for the charity Wellbeing of Women.  It looks as if we will between us raise about £1000 which is a superb response and a tribute to those we are remembering (Gillian & Rachel) and celebrating (Jean's sister who has survived ovarian cancer).  At times the walking was a slog - we were tired or our feet hurt, but at least we knew that there was a (positive) end ahead.  Even my sprained ankle is recovering well (just don't tell the medics I walked on it for a couple of days assuming it was just a simple twist!) and will soon be a memory.  For many women (and men for that matter) pain is a life long companion and diseases such as ovarian cancer do not simply go away with a bit of rest.  Traipsing through a field of sheep poo in driving rain it was good to recall just what this was all about and lend a bit of perspective to our discomfort.

On a couple of days I wound up walking in flip flops - not, I hasten to point out, the cause of the ankle injury which was sustained later.  After walking 10 - 15 miles my feet were FILTHY and reflecting on the story of the woman who washed Jesus' feet with her tears & hair took on a new level of meaning as I began to appreciate what his feet may have been like.  Far from a ceremonial nicety, foot washing after a long day of walking is a necessity, and I was very glad of the convenience of showers and baths in the B&B's where we stayed.

My final reflection on the whole journey was on its voluntary nature - there was no compulsion to go anywhere and only stubbornness to make me continue to the end.  I was free to choose what to take with me, knowing that at the end of the journey I would return to the security of home, not find myself a refugee in a hostile nation.  Each night I knew there would be a roof over my head and food to eat, clean sheets and hot water; at all times I was only a phone call from friends and family and received encouraging texts from a friend in Manchester.  During the same period, how many people worldwide have had to flee their homes with only what they can carry, not knowing if they will eat or where they might find shelter?  It's a sobering thought that what we do for fun or for a challenge is what other people do of necessity.

Now I am back in Dibley, have checked around 80 emails, opened a couple of dozen letters and dealt with 6 messages on my answer phone.  Normality returns all too quickly.  I am secretly (or not so secretly now) proud of what we achieved in the last two weeks and have enjoyed being away from routine, yet there is something actually quite reassuring about life picking up its familiar threads...

I have not yet decided what the next adventure will be - but I reckon the next time I go from Liverpool to Hull it will be via the M62/M60!

(If you're going to plagiarise, you might as well plagiarise the world's all time best seller!).

There will, indeed, be silence in this corner of Blogland for about half a month - next week I have to fit five days' work into three (so nothing new there) in order to be able to go to Manchester for three days to be introduced to the Doctorate of Practical Theology that will occupy my spare time and eat my remaining savings for the next six years.  I am very much looking forward to this, it has an element of 'pioneering' about it and it will be good to have some more formal exercise for my brain.  Then, after a detour to Sheffield for an ordination service and a service back in Dibley on the theme of 'Living Stones' it's back to the North West to begin my little stroll from Liverpool to Hull.  Sponsorship to date is around £600 and still a few more offers trickling in.  I am looking forward to the walk, to two weeks away from Dibley doing something utterly different - and to dipping my toes in the North Sea at the end of it!

So, one way and another there will be no blogging for a bit.  I may revert to real journalling of some sort whilst walking - though paper adds mass to my pack - and there will undoubtedly be plenty to reflect on when I get back.

I often wonder what silence in heaven for around 30 minutes would be like - no endless Alleluia's by the heavenly creatures, all those walled gardens for different denominations devoid of hand-raising, incense, organ music, Wesley, Kendrick, or whatever their thing is, lest the others might hear and realise they are not, afterall, alone...  would there be a sense of foreboding as perhaps Revelation implies?  Alas studying Revelation at undergraduate level served only to confirm one thing: it is a confusing book that I do not understand any more than I did beforehand (though I understand my confusion a little better!). 

By contrast this half a month of silence is something I am looking forward to, whatever may follow on afterwards.

I have just finished reading The Secret Life of Bees, by Sue Monk Kidd, as illustrated.

According to Amazon it's women's fiction, so maybe not of great appeal to many people who pass by this place - since statistically it seems that blokes blog and girls journal (and I like corny alliteration, even if it's only almost).

Anyway, it was quite refreshingly different from a lot of stuff I read and without too tidy an ending.  For those who are interested in finding novels that show hints of spirituality or theology, one of the central icons of the whole story is a black madonna around which/whom a small group of southern American black women have developed their own cult (used in its theological not pejorative meaning).  The central character is a white teenage runaway seeking to understand and resolve issues in her past.  The bees and honeymaking form the backdrop to the story which is quite simple and at times gently profound.  Being around 350 pages and with an undemanding style, it's about the right for holiday reading - enjoy!

The old grey matter has been churning around and spitting out quotes, some of which I have forgotten the true origins of but which, in their own way, have influenced my thinking

1981, Jim Stewart, Nuclear Engineering student (year above me) & member of college C.U. 'which heresy do you follow?'

2004, speaker with forgotten name, Christian Praise, Leicester 'suddenly I realised that God might not like my theology'

2003, in a Stanley Hauerwaus book and possibly quoting someone else 'if nothing's worth dying for, in the end you die for nothing.'

Many of the C.U. members considered I was too liberal to be admitted to membership, but Jim seemed to be onto something important.  Whilst my theology is honestly held and open to review, there are parts where it would actually be nice to think that God disagreed!  I have many strong opinions, but would I die for them...?  It all lends a helpful perspective to the things we get het up about and squabble over.