Last night was the final midweek reflection of our six month experiment.  The last of our Ignatian style series, I used the short 'review of the day' (examen) from Pray As You Go.

The examen is a guided process in which the participant is invited to think back over thier day, identifying highs and lows, joys and regrets, struggles and achievements, all without judgement.  They are then invited to see how God has been present in all of that, and offer it all back to God.

There are oodles of similar techniques, some overtly faith-based others not.  It's a good practice and one I know I need to cultivate better.

Sitting alone, since no-one else was able to be there, and looking back over what was mainly a "good day" after a couple of weeks that have been quite challenging, I found myself pondering the whole six month experiment.

There were four phases, each of five to six weeks duration, with a gap for Holy Week and Easter.

The Introduction to Mindfulness was well attended and people stuck at it even if they found it challenging or even if they concluded it was 'not for them'.  Whether anyone has now explored it further I don't know - I should probably have asked - but it seemed to be well appreciated.

The Lent Study attracted the largest numbers, and we enjoyed some stimulating conversations around the  themes raised by the film Les Miserables.  At the end of the series, partiicpants felt that they'd like a bit of a change next year, moving away from a film-based study to something more along the lines of a study guide.

Compline saw us move to a later slot, at 9 p.m., on the basis that the lighter nights made it feasible to be out later.  Numbers were always small, and for many poeple the timing was a problem.  One night I sat alone saying the office, which I found surprisingly upsetting... I did reflect on it at the time, and I know that, theologically/spiritually it didn't matter that it was only me, but personally it did.

The Ignatian series, downloaded from Pray As You Go was really valued by the one person, other than me, who came along each week.  I, too, found the reflections  valuable, even though it's not really my preferred style.  And then last night the other person was unable to come and I sat alone to undertake the examen.

I'm glad we tried the experiment, because at the start there did seem to be a significant appetite for it, and lots of apparent enthusiasm.  Maybe I didn't ask the right questions, or maybe people were too polite to express opinions, but it does seem, on reflection, to have 'missed the mark'.  That's not a bad thing, not the sign of a failed experiment - any true experiment has to be open to whatever its outcome.

And this post is not aimed at anyone other than myself - these are my reflections on my involvement with the experiment.  I feel that I have learned a lot, about myself if nothing else.

Last week the Deacons and I discussed the way forward following this experiment.  It was a good and helpful conversation, honest and engaged.  I feel confident, then, that the next steps we make will be good ones.