I was once told you needed eight hugs a day to survive - so I'm not sure how I've lasted 45 years, but there you go.  I have a feeling virtual/metaphorical ones work at least almost as well as have the advantage of not being misconstrued or abused.

So here's one for J, J and F and for any others who are feeling bemused, battered and bewildered - or just a little unloved or unlovely.

From http://asbojesus.wordpress.com/2008/01/11/342/

Last night's Church Meeting has left me somewhat puzzled.  In a good way mostly, but puzzled none the less.

We are fortunate that proportionally, our attendance is always good - usually at least 50% of members (we rarely have 'open' meetings unless there's something really major to think through...!).  Knowing the number of people with colds etc, I'd arranged the chairs in a single horseshoe rather than rows, and opted to use a Powerpoint thing with some music, based around Jesus washing his disicples feet, for our opening devotions.

In some ways there wasn't that much to discuss - more lots of things to report back on.

As ever, the pastoral news section was the longest section of the meeting.  A lot of people have big stuff to deal with at the moment, and it took a while to get round such of these as people who are willing to share.  It dismays me that we still have to list all the broken fingernails when others face life-hanging/threatening situations but there you go.

The aspects of church life that excite me - the wonderful Christmas outreach events, the steady but effective mission work and the upcoming Vision Day seemed to evoke minimal response from people, though we did agree to have a 'faith lunch' at the Vision Day which is big time progress for us!  Even the update from the architect over our planning application - due to go in again in a few days, so please pray.... - prompted minimal interest.  The most conversation seemed to arise over the disposal (or not) of our ancient, obsolete and barely functional photocopier which has sat in someone's garage for three years.  Said item will now be auctioned on Ebay and if it does not sell chucked.

It was a really unspectacular church meeting.  Yet it was filled with funny moments and lots of laughter.  When we closed at 9:15 (a Church meeting under 2 hours - we are well good!) people sat and chatted to each other and I had to chivy them up in the end so I could lock up and return the key.

I am intrigued by all this.  Suddenly we are being forced to support each other because people have 'pants' things to face.  Suddenly, amidst some real struggles - so much more meaningful than hymn book colours or buildings - we are discovering one of God's most precious gifts - that of laughter.

It was a somewhat weird Church Meeting.  I struggled with the blank expressions that arose whan people were asked to reflect on Christmas events.  But I am glad that we were able to laugh together - which maybe is a good precursor for the day, which will surely come, when we must also cry together.

Today came news that Sir Edmund Hilary had died.  Stuck in stationary traffic due to an accident on the M1, with my car engine swtiched off, I listened to a radio phone-in where people were sharing their memories of 'that day in 1953.'

First we heard from a famous person who had been at her father's club in Pall Mall to watch the coronation, and how the conquest of Everest and the Epsom Derby later that week were so fascinating and memorable.  Another media person spoke of being in Park Lane for the coronation.  And so it went on, people who'd owned TVs, people who had travelled to London to see the coronation...  Then the one that for me said it all, was a man who had been a ten-year-old boy living in a 'religious orphanage' in Liverpool who'd heard the news on the only radio in the home.  With no hint of bitterness, he recalled how this has made him realise how big the world was and that he too could aspire to great things (not his exact words, my reporting).  Living in a community behind high brick walls, he had assumed that heaven literally lay beyond them, now, he recalled, he dared to think differently.  This man never became famous, but in his own words 'had done quite well,' and I'm glad.

Lots of people think they are mourning Edmund Hilary, and maybe they are.  Today a friend of mine conducts a funeral for an elderly lady whose life was well lived whilst coming to terms with the loss of her own father-in-law who died yesterday.  The rich and famous have their place, and maybe they inspire us in some ways.  But it is the little people whose stories we never know, or know only in part after they've died, who actually shape the world.  True courage for me is not standing on a mountain top, but conquering pain, fear or sorrow to do what is needed of us. 

On Monday an 89 year old loosely linked to my church died; most of my own people didn't know her, no-one will ever remember where they were when they heard the news, but her life is no less valuable in the grand scheme of things.  I may have a tougher job constructing a eulogy than whoever buries Edmund Hilary - but the job we both do will be same.

It's still nice to be too young to remember the things that are spoken of in hushed tones by radio reporters, but hopefuly I'll never be too young or too old to be moved by what I hear or see on my own doorstep.

I feel kind of obliged to comment on today's announcement to build more nuclear stations in my capacity as so many people's tame evil nuke person (A Homer-Ned-composite?).

Whatever I may think, and that is hardly news let's face it, there are some important comments being made by such diverse groups as GreenPeace, Friends of the Earth and the I Mech E (who still manage to convince me to part with almost £200 a year for the privilege of using a few letters!).

The two environmental organisations rightly point out that a decision to build more of any kind of power station is not the key issue - it's more about how much power we use on the first place; less bad is not the same as good.  The IMech E notes - as the power industries have been saying for as long as I can recall - that there's no one much left who can do any design work.  Whatever technology we opt for, we'll have to buy it in and then modify it to meet our safety standards - possibly digging up 'dead' experts to help out along the way.  Even supposing we had a ready to build design for a large power station available today, and even if there was a site available and planning granted, and even even if there were no overruns, no hitches and no protests - along with a flock of flying pigs - it'd be around 10 years before anything got generated.

The BBC website has a nice little 'power calculator' thingy you can play with to mix and match your power generation options.  Greener energy is also dearer energy and there's the rub - are we really willing to use less and/or pay more in the interest of later generations, or do we simply want to close our eyes to the consequences and 'spend, spend, spend?'

The mess that is events at Wycliffe Hall (an Anglican training college) gets increasingly more ugly.  I never thought the day would come when I'd be turning to Tertuallian....

"Vide", inquiunt, "ut invicem se diligant" - ipsi enim invicem oderunt - "et ut pro alteruto mori sint parati"; ipsi enim ad occidendum alterutrum paratiores erunt.

"Look," they say, "how they love one another" (for they themselves hate one another); "and how they are ready to die for each other" (for they themselves are readier to kill each other).

Apologeticum chapter 39,7 From http://www.tertullian.org/quotes.htm

Don't quite know how I'm meant to take it, but a sarcastic reading, with Christians as the 'they' in the parenthesised bits, felt right today!  

I readily agree that the way Elaine Storkey and others were treated is wrong.  I'm just saddened that unfair dismissal and compensation seemingly is not enough - now we have to have lawsuits among/between believers.  The obvious passage of 1 Corinthains 6: 1 - 10 is I'm sure far from trivial to unpack, and I concur that wrong has been done to these folk at Wycliffe Hall, but I can't help feeling that the religious discrimination case - and the way it makes the church look - exemplifies 1 Cor 6:7a "In fact, to have lawsuits at all with one another is already a defeat for you." (NRSV).  What must we look like?

But before I dare get judgemental, I also recall 1 Cor 12: 26a "If one member [of the body] suffers, all suffer together with it" (NRSV).  The whole church is damaged by this, as other, internal injustices and wranglings.

Father forgive us, we don't know what we're doing. 

I recall come words in a song I have on an old cassette tape, sung by Sheila Walsh back in the 1980s

We walk the aisle of history

Leave a battered, wounded bride -

But Jesus loves the church

 

I thank God for that much.