When I was a child, one of the things that really annoyed me was if my parents answered a question with 'wait and see.'  If I asked a question I usually wanted to know the answer now!  'Wait and see' required patience and trust - not always easy.

On Sunday evening service No 3 is for the Penties in Dibley.  This time they've chosen the text as part of a series they're doing on Habakkuk. Rather than simply cribbing the sermon I wrote for my own congregation last year - which was tempting, I read it over and it was one of my better ones - I decided to be good and start afresh.  As I revisited the text (Hab 1:12 - 2:1) and the commentaries, I was struck by the final verse of the passage which was Habakkuk deciding to 'wait and see.'  The answer might not come immediately, but Habakkuk would make a conscious effort to wait and look out to see what it might be.

I think this is all the more remarkable because he is dealing with tough stuff - the perennial problems of a good God and the reality of evil, the truth that bad things happen to good people, that innocent bystanders get caught up in war.  There are really big questions about how God metes justice on structural or corporate sin, about whether war, occupation or exile are God's punishment, about what it means to be part of a fallen/disordered world but the answers just don't come - or at least not ina neat knock-down proof text kind of a way.  Like Habakkuk, we have to wait and see, not in an idle, fatalistic way - the call to righteous living precludes that, but accepting that, as the Corinthians were told 'we see only in part.'

I'm not good at 'waiting and seeing,' I am happier when things are in my control, when I can sort problems out, deal with issues, find answers, dot the i's and cross the t's (with or without apostrophes, I'm not sure which is right in this context!).  But 'wait and see' seems to be the theme of the moment, the 'word' to share on Sunday, the only answer I'm going to get when, like Habakkuk, I ask God hard questions.

If you're a British Baptist (BUGB, BUS or BUW variety) you will know that BMS has had significant shortfalls in income over the last few years and now faces the possibility of staff cuts.  A phone call this morning from someone directly affected by this made it all very real.  Please pray for those who lives are affected by the very real possibility of redundancy and upheaval.  Please also pray for those who face the responsibilties of making these tough and painful decisions.

If you happen to be a Baptist, please also consider carefully and prayerfully your financial giving to BMS (and for that matter HMF which directly affects me!) - we are all responsible in some measure for this situation.

Many thanks to Geoff Colmer who emailed some wonderful instrumental music to me for use as background for worship.  I have since discovered that typing 'free mp3 worship' or 'free mp3 meditation' into Google (or other search engines no doubt) brings up some useful stuff, though depending on your theological standpoint you might think some of it is tad dodgy (especially if you put the word 'christian' into your serach!).  Also some useful stuff out there if you are sans-musicians and want hymn/song backing.  If you are willing to pay, well there's LOADS of stuff.

Thanks also to Andy Jones who sent me a link to the Reaching the Unchurched Newtwork (RUN) website from which I downloaded a video file for Paul Field's 'God of the Moon and Stars' (don't even try it if you are on dialup, it's quite big and slow even with broadband) which part of this Sunday's service.

Tonight at 'thing in a pub' our speaker was the Chief Constable of Leicestershire, who is an incredibly entertaining and engaging speaker as well as being a very committed Christian.  We'd worked quite hard to advertise the event - including paying over £50 for a press advert - and attracted just two people who'd seen the advert and came because it was an opportunity to speak to the Chief Constable about something that was important to them.  At least they sat through his testimony first!

Whilst I'm glad that these folk came along - and I guess being cornered is an occupational hazard for this particular speaker - I was disappointed that the turn out overall was so low.  Some would tell me it is because it's not what God wants (though they can't tell me what God actually does want instead) some blame the day, time or venue, indeed anything but their own apathy.  Next month we have the local MP, and I guess we'll once more get a few folk who want to catch his ear.

Apart from physically dragging people in off the streets, I'm not sure what more we can do... answers on a postcard.

In the meantime at least I know that those who came along had an excellent evening, were entertained, inspired and challenged in fairly equal measure. 

Here's one for the classical music buffs out there.  I am preparing a short act of worship built around images of Jacob's dream at Bethel and his encounter at Peniel.  I am trying to find some suitable music, preferably instrumental and preferably not a hymn tune or overworked item, to use as 'background' for this.  I have some miscellaneous reflection music (of the one hour of piano music that never quite goes anywhere variety) but I'm a bit tired of it, and a reasonable selection of 'sacred' and 'secular' stuff but nothing that quite seems to do the biz.  Any (sensible!) suggestions?