From psalms to hymns to worship songs, we sang our praises and our prayers this morning, in a wonderful 'Songs of Praise' style service during which the five folk we recently Baptised covenanted with us in Membership. Not often my voice cracks doing the words, but it did today! Such a precious and beautiful moment.
Afterwards, we made our way over the road to the Botanic Gardens to share a picnic - and what a wonderful feast we had. Persian soup, Scottish strawberries and oatcakes, English cheese and cherries... melon and hummus, crisps and breadsticks, eggs and apples, biscuits and bananas... a veritable feast with something for everyone, and a fair amount ot leftovers taken away afterwards.
It was an absolute delight to see young, old and in between all enjoying each other's company, sharing food and stories, and watching the children play with those from families and groups sitting near us. Here, in the park, on a sunny day, people of many races, faiths, nationalities and cultures shared the simplest of human joys - food and friendship.
As we move into summer, and as services take a slightly different format for a few weeks, it felt like we marked the transition in a good way - and maybe, just maybe, God smiled!
I know quite a lot of church folk read this blog, and I know that sometimes things I write here can be heard in ways other than I intend - I hope that's not the case here, but just to be on the safe side, I assure you that all is well, and I am simply exploring some tentative ideas that emerged this morning.
Some ministers are super-spiritual. They get up before God does, pray for hours at a time and read ginormous chunks of scripture every day. I am not one of them. Indeed, since my brain was fried by chemotherapy almost eight years ago, I've never quite managed to return to the rhythms and models that served me well for around thirty years.
One thing that does work for me is silence (or at least absence of conversation) and doodling, two things that retreats not only permit, they encourage. So this morning I had a half day of 'retreat at home' and it's been good.
I began sitting in my office and looking up on the internet some worship songs I love, but that, undoubtedly for good reasons, are never sung in the communities of which I am a part these days. As the music washed over me, I allowed myself to doodle, to let my brain go wheresoever it wished. I filled three pages with very different doodlings, culminating in the one that I've included above.
As I created the pattern, my mind wandered back through time to summer 2003 and the NBC leavers' retreat when we went to a centre at Blackley in Yorkshire, and were sent out for an hour or so to mull over the story of the great catch of fish from Luke's gospel. At the time, I had yet to settle in a church, and had twice failed to be called following a 'preach with a view', and it wasn't a nice feeling. As I looked out over the fields, I became aware of the pylons - the visible expression of the national grid, a network that carries electricity throughout the British mainland (and indeed, beyond). Let down your net... but where? It gave me permission to express my frustrations and feats, as well as reminding me that somewhere there was a fish to be caught, a church that would call me. And there was, and there has been again, and God has been faithful.
At the moment there is a lot of change going on in my world, and the one thing that I am confident is not changing is my call to the Gathering Place - this is still where God wants me to be, it is still where exicting things are happening, it is still a place that gives me more joy than not! So why this story again?
I recalled the two catch stories, Luke and John, and phrases that popped into my mind, and then checked them in a a couple of Bible translations.
So here's what emerged...
Put out into deep water
'You and your partners' (GNB) let down your nets
Throw your nets to the right side
Deep water - now there's a challenge! Paddling in the shallows is easy, almost risk free, but ultimately not going to catch any fish. So I am starting to wonder what our 'deep water' might be.
'Your and your partners' - the GNB captures the intent of the Greek beautifully, since the 'you' is explicitly plural. I don't think I've ever heard a sermon that noted the plural language here, because the focus has always been on Peter. Indeed that's how it was back in 2003, at least as I reflected on it. The nets are not mine, nor are they yours or theirs, they are ours. And that's the important point for me, and for us, to be reminded of. We can't just sit in the boat and enjoy the ride, we all have to muck in together in the hard labour of fishing. In a few weeks I will be preaching on Jesus calling his disicples, so hopefully I will remember this idea and work it in!!
Throw your nets to the right side. We read this, correctly, as throwing the net to starboard rather than to port, yet we never translate it thus. So I found myself thinking about the other meanings of the word 'right', which historically at least, would have been implied. Right as 'correct', as 'good', as 'appropriate' or 'best'... I I wondered, what is the correct, good, appropriate or best direction to cast our nets, to expend our energies? What is the place where the 'fish' are to be found? Some hints are emerging, some ideas being explored, but it's a really good question to ponder some more.
It was a good morning, and I feel refreshed, restored, renewed. And those songs? Well here's one of them, should you fancy a listen.
Here's my prototype character for the banner project... definitely some refinement needed but not too shabby for a first attempt. Will she make it into the banner? Yes, she will, becayse actually in life no-one ios a 'prototype' to be discarded, and everyone is important. Just another dozen (or more) people neededover the next few weeks. I reckon it took me about half an hour to make her, by the time I had sketched, cut, fused, assembled, trimmed, adjuested and what not.
There's still work to do before she becomes part of the banner, and I hope at least a few folk will have fun creating other characters to join her.